Tuesday, June 23, 2026

"The Day is Come" - First in the four-part series 'Hoof' - Mixed media on plywood. My 180th painting.

 


Henry exits the quick-shop, bag in hand. He shuffles down the sidewalk and enters an alleyway - stopping at the rear of a car from which noises emanate. He stares at the trunk, muffled grunts and haphazard kicking.
 
A stray cat several yards away catches his attention, before darting between dilapidated slats of an old wooden fence. He moves through the darkness, reaching the spot where the feline disappeared.
 
Under the pale flicker of a street light, Henry retrieves a small can from his bag. He opens and dumps its contents onto the ground and returns to the car. The trunk has gone quiet - he watches and waits. Moments pass, the cat emerges to find the food. Then, a surprize -
 
One small kitten appears, then a second and a third. They join mother in the tiny feast. He knows it’s not enough. He sets his bag down and revisits the shop, returning with another.
 
He glides cautiously towards the little family - they spot him and scurry back under the weathered planks. Henry kneels and opens three new cans.

“It’s alright kitties, I have more food.”

He stands and moves briskly up the alley. Again, the fur family sneak back out one at a time until all four are devouring the delicious morsels. Henry looks on, smiling.
 
More noise from the trunk. Henry throws the lid open, glares at the source of the bother.
 
“Shut up! Almost there.” he growls, punching the troublemaker and slamming the trunk closed.


A simple metal building with its corrosive display presented as an otherworldly way station against a backdrop of eerie light - a haunting, dank glimmer from a waxing gibbous orb high overhead - the scene, one of marvel yet chilling and vampiric.
 
Within the tumbledown structure, many several miles from anywhere, an impenetrable hush fills every battered inch of its modest space.

Lashed to a wooden chair - a man wearing a dirty grey hood shakes uncontrollably as urine drips from the seat. Henry stands just feet away - naked barring a black set of scuffed tactical boots and a shield crudely constructed from a pig’s face, strapped on like a hockey mask.

Henry snatches the hood, the man yelps - squinting in the dim, confusing light.

“Oh God, what is this? Who are you?” he blurts.

Henry is statuesque, dismantling him with silence.
“Why am I here?” he challenges with cracked voice.

Henry turns, takes three steps, then does an about-face.
“You are not a nice person.”
“What? What the hell are you talking about?”

Henry moves forward, circles the chair, stopping behind.
“You are not a good person.” he adds and coasts across the room.
“What the hell does that mean?”

Reaching down into an old mahogany tool box, Henry takes up an item in each hand, then redirects his focus.
 
“You did terrible things to me as a child.”

The man’s breath gallops upon witnessing the objects Henry holds.
“What do you mean? I don’t even know you! What the fuck did I do?”

Slow and menacing, Henry advances towards the individual fastened to the chair, halting posterior.

“Every day in school - the torture, the names, the beatings.” he informs, tapping a pair of pliers on the man’s right shoulder.

Sweaty and breathless - he squirms in his seat, fighting the restraints.
“You’ve got the wrong person! I never did any such thing!”

Henry steps around to the front.
“It was you!” he screams, inches from his face.
“No! I swear, it wasn’t!”

Henry kneels, unlaces and removes his boot - exposing the remnants of his birth defect.

He gazes down at Henry’s deformity with glassy, bloodshot eyes.
“See?” Henry corrects.

He puts his boot back on and grabs his tools.
“Oh God, oh no, no, no, no, no, no, no!” he whimpers.

Henry stands before him, lightly tapping the pliers and fish gutting knife together.

“We were kids, just children! Please, don’t, don’t do this!”

Henry stomps on the man’s right foot, grinding his boot in.
“Open your mouth.”

The childhood bully weeps, squeals.
“Now!” he yells.
 
The man obeys, his quivering lips reluctantly part.
“May you be absent of voice in the life to come.”

Henry clamps the tongue, pulling it nearly from the root - then hacks at it with rage and frenzy. The man bellows and gurgles in the appropriate manner.

“Hoof!” Henry howls, raising the tongue to the heavens.
 
The throttled man gasps, shrieks and gushes blood.

Henry sets the pliers and pound of flesh down a few feet away, returning to him with the knife.
 
“Back to the stars.” he softly declares.

The seven-inch blade plunges into the dying man’s chest, cutting, twisting through bone and cartilage - removing his heart. Henry delivers both trophies to the old tool box then carefully paces back to his guest.


He removes his mask and crowns the deceased man with a severed pig’s head.

Friday, June 19, 2026

Hoof

Peoria, Illinois - April 1980.

Henry Saffles, 29, was born with a club foot and cleft palate. His early days of school were vexing - relentlessly beaten and bullied for his disabilities. Cruel and hateful name-calling rang out from every direction - pighoof, crippletard.



I was always the outcast.

A kind, gentle soul my mother would say but behind that unfortunate facade, buried in shame and shadow, a tormented and violent creature. One taught by tragedy to gnash at the chains of decency - shackled by an absurdly indecent society.

Forced to tolerate the vile acts and sickness of others in the name of convention - keeping in line, taking the high road, turning the other cheek - all just infantile pretense for the weak and self-deceived. No more will I play along.


People always made me out to be a monster. 

Maybe it’s finally time to prove them right.




Hoof

The Day is Come

Long May You Wander

A Father’s Love

Unrest




A four-part writing/painting series.


Coming soon.

Monday, May 4, 2026

Update on 'Alone'

I'm shelving the project for now. Going to work on something else.
No teasers until it's completely done. Hopefully it'll end up there.

Saturday, March 21, 2026

"Away From it All" - First in the four-part series 'Alone' - Mixed media on plywood. My 179th painting.

 


Mooresville, Indiana - June 18, 1993.

It’s official - I’m the brand-new owner of a big ass farmhouse! Minus the farm. Two stories on three acres. I’m surrounded by gorgeous woodlands! Morning walks in the fall, I can already feel the cool air on my face, the crunch of dried leaves underfoot. This is where it all starts!
 
However, a heaviness lingers. The previous owner - an elderly woman in her nineties - passed away here. She lost both her husband and only son in the Second World War. France or Poland I think. After that, her health went into steady decline until the unfortunate end.

But things begin anew!
 
The realtor met me here just after lunchtime with the keys, congratulated me and was rather quick to be on his way. Seemed a bit off but I suppose his day is full.
 
Got everything moved in, only what I had in the truck bed, just need to unpack and put it all away. Still house poor! I’ll be on task Monday to get some furniture.
 
Until then, it’s simple living - my old sleeping bag and collapsible camping chair. May even sleep outside, soak up my new environment. I’m so excited!



Sunday - June 20.

Good Sunday Morning! Slept a little better last night. A few blankets under the sleeping bag made all the difference! First order of business was coffee, which I’m still presently enjoying, then - I flushed the sertraline. I’ve had it with nausea, headaches and spontaneous dry heaves. Fuck all that! Gonna look into something natural, maybe find an apothecary or herbal shop. There has to be something local to fit the bill. I’ll add it to my list:

- bed

- sofa

- table/chairs

- fridge & stove

- typing paper

- natural pick me ups
 
Just the essentials for now. There’s plenty of time to fill this place with all the comforts of home. Speaking of essentials, I’m starving! I think a quick trip to my favorite guilty pleasure - the golden arches - is in order! Then maybe a little wander around town to see what’s what. It’s so quiet I can actually hear the birds and the wind in the trees. This will be the best chapter of my life!


Beth would have loved it here.

Tuesday, February 24, 2026

Alone [intro]

Moira Finley, 41, florist - is embarking on a new path to find her place in the world.


Cleveland, Ohio - June 14, 1993.

My ex-therapist always suggested keeping a journal. So here we go I guess.

First day as an unemployed florist. Months in the making but I did it - I sold the shop! Twelve years of blood and sweat. Just couldn’t do it anymore. My heart wasn’t in it. Such a shame when our love for things falls cold. No more settling for safe and familiar.

I want to feel alive again!

So with these two packs of ballpoints, stack of spiral notebooks and mom’s old typewriter - it’s now or never - I’m gonna start writing! Got enough savings to coast a few months before having to get a “real job” - I really think I can make this work.

Friday I close on the new place. The truck will be loaded and Cleveland in the rear view. Here’s to fresh starts and a new life!




Alone

Away From it All

Things Amiss

Stirrings

No Uncertain Terms




A four-part writing/painting series - initiating contact, soon.

Saturday, February 14, 2026

The conflict has begun...

A time for all things.

Life destroys us without cause.

Cursed to walk alone.




March 2026

Friday, January 30, 2026

"The Confession pt. 2" - Final in the three-part series 'Heretic' - Mixed media on plywood. My 178th painting.

 


The video resumes and Darcy returns to her chair. Mute and despondent, she stares at the floor. Moments tick past, she rises and steps out of view.
 
There’s a tapping sound, like plastic on a hard surface - then a swift snort, followed by two sharp sniffles. She re-enters the frame wiping her nose and is seated.
 
Her attention settles on the table, the release of tears - she lifts the bottle and pours one more, without drinking.

“The night of the 11th, it was after midnight - maybe closer to one, making it the 12th - my birthday. I broke into the daycare.”

She takes a healthy pull from the glass.
“I almost talked myself out of this one.”

She wipes her eyes and face.
“But I had to see it through.”

Darcy takes a long, deep breath. Her expression contorts, she sobs with mournful abandon - covering her face with both hands - the tormented wailing muffled.

She finds a break in the upheaval.

“I went into the kitchen, looked around. There was a giant pitcher of fruit punch or juice in the fridge. It was nearly full.”

She tilts her head back, rolls it side to side.
“I had ten bottles of eye drops - six into the pitcher.”

She reaches for the glass and finishes its contents.
“There were two plastic containers of cookies on the counter. A bottle in each.”

Darcy turns sideways and doubles over in her chair - howling, convulsing as she wept.

“I saw the news report and knew I’d made a horrific mistake!” she concedes between sobs.

“Twenty-seven babies! Three to six years-old!”
 
She screeches a few unintelligible words, guilt and shame eating her alive.
“I didn’t want them to have a lifetime of suffering!”

The fury settles, she catches her breath.
“I was wrong.”

She blots her face with the hem of her shirt.
“I truly believed this was the only way of granting mercy on the innocent - but it wasn’t.”

Darcy stands and walks out of frame. Close to a minute elapses before her return. She takes her seat, throws the glass into the kitchen and chugs from the bottle.
 
Her dead eyes grip the camera lens -
 
“That’s all.”


The detectives watch Darcy end her life with a self-inflicted gunshot.